Though this blog was previously filled with posts about Project Transformation, that period in my life is now over. But I decided I don't think that necessarily means my blogging days need to be over.
When I was younger I used to write all of the time. When I was in first grade my writing consisted of adventures of made up characters called Christine and Ashley. When I got a little bit older, it consisted of an extra credit autobiography assignment in Mrs. Vogt's class. When I got even older than that, into my wonderful "wild child" years as I so lovingly refer to them as, also known as freshman and sophomore year of high school, my writing consisted of journals upon journals of my life, my hopes, my dreams, my fears.. Everything that you'd expect out of an angsty teenager with no clue about the world.
And then my writing stopped. It got replaced by friends, sports, way too many extracurricular activities, and a job. And now, nearly seven years after the fact, I finally feel the urge to write again.
I have no idea why.
The truth is, I have no idea about most things in the world.
I will not lie and put up a facade that I have most things figured out. Yes, I am confident. I am confident because of the love that I have in my life. Love that comes from a Heavenly Father that comforts my every fear and cheers my every victory. Love of my boyfriend, a man who is better than I ever could have dreamed. His love is consistent and steady, strong and tender at the same time. The love of a family that was not always perfect, but still loved me with every facet of their beings. Love that radiates from some of the best friends you could possible imagine. Most of them live far away, but their support is my backbone.
However, this confidence should in no way be mistaken for wisdom. As previously mentioned, I do not know the inner workings of the world. I do not know the future, do not know all of history, do not know why I react certain ways sometimes. I really do not know much of anything.
But I'm okay with that.
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